Smile. Pray. Forgive

 "My Amnesia Girl"

Comedy or Tear-jerker?  

Madaming tanong yung pumasok sa isip ko nung pinanuod ko tong pelikulang to. Naisip ko na bakit nga may mga lalaki na di kayang panindigan ang mga desisyon na ginawa nila? Bakit takot na takot sila sa commitment? Don't they have the balls to do it? 

Sa tingin ko, kaya nagiging ganito ang mga lalaki ngayon, kasi kasalanan din ng mga babae. Bakit nga naman sila mag-co-commit sa isang babae kung pwede rin naman nilang makuha ang mga benefits ng "in a relationship" kung single sila. 

I just want to share this favorite quote of mine from the book "Boy meets Girl" by Joshua Harris

Guys, I want you to think about this quote. Ano ba ang courtship para sa inyo? Yun ba yung kapag gusto mo siya ngayon liligawan mo na agad? Dapat isipin niyo din paano sa future? Nakikita niyo ba na yung babaeng liligawan niyo na makakasama niyo forever? Learn to pray. Ask for His guidance. 

Girls, know your worth. Wag niyo gawin ang mga bagay na dapat lalaki ang gumagawa. Wait patiently. Pray while waiting. Don't date a guy that you can't see yourself to be with. 

Sana dumating yung oras na wala ng babaeng iiyak dahil nasaktan ng isang guy na hindi ready sa commitment. If di pa kayo ready, wag niyo na ituloy. Hindi naman trial and error ang love. Minsan nagkakamali ang tao pero dun tayo natututo. 

Why do people fall? So they'll know where to pick their selves up. ♥ :)

Smile. Pray. Forgive.

Tatay's 90th

This is the happiest moment of my life so far.

 Three weeks before the 90th Birthday of Lolo, my aunt form Canada, Tita Lyn,

asked us to prepare a surprise birthday party for his Tatay (our lolo).

I must admit, the preparation was so tiring. 

On the day itself, my lolo was very sad because his Apos and Anaks were teasing him. We kept saying "Happy birthday Tatay Walang Handa". Di niya lang alam na after church, napagusapan na namin nila tita kung paano siya dadalhin sa venue. 

On their way to the venue, My lolo asked Tita Gi "San ba tayo pupunta? Bakit parang di ko naman alam tong lugar na to?" My brother answered: "Tay, punta tayong LUGAWAN kasi diba birthday mo.. Libre ko kayo" 

(While waiting for celebrant to arrive) 

(When the celebrant arrived in the venue)

Welcoming him to his "Birthday Party"

Everyone's so happy and some even shed tears of joy.

I just can't contain the happiness of our whole family.

L-R (Tita Ayeth (The eldest), Tito Bert, My Mom, Tito Popoy, Tatay, Gi, Tito Zaldy, Tito Ruben)

Front: Nanay

The blowing of Candles

The party was very simple. We prepared some Dance and Song Number for lolo. We also did the Traditional Wishes, Wines and Gifts. 

It was indeed the happiest day for almost all of us. The joy on everyone's face is priceless. I'm glad I'm part of this family. Thank you Lord for making me part of this crazy yet the best family ever.

Necessary Losses on 19th

I'm writing this because I'm terribly hurting right now. My 20th birthday is coming and I realize how I lost, those people whom I considered important in my life.

I lost my grandmother. She was my biggest fan. She never forgets my birthday. Kapag birthday ko nga lagi niya kong bibigyan ng 100 pesos tapos ako na yung pinaka masayang bata. Siya yung laging nakakahuli sakeng umiiyak sa kwarto. Alam ko kahit di man madalas sabihin saken ni Nanay, mahal na mahal niya ko. Ito yung first birthday ko na wala si Nanay. I miss you so much, Nay. Nasan ka man, I know you're happy. I love you.

I lost a lover. He's the one who knows every bit of me. For more than two years, we've shared laughters and tears. We argue most of the times but at the end of the day, magbabati din kami kasi di ko matiis na magalit sa kanya. Maybe some things are not meant to last forever. I know he's happy now. Maybe he found a girl who's much better than me. I loved him so much before, so much that it still hurts right now. I never regret our relationship. Maybe di lang talaga kami ang para sa isa't isa. Mabasa mo man to or hindi, I'm thankful that once in my life, I had you.

I lost my bestfriend. Si twin yung araw araw na nangangamusta saken. Siya yung napagsasabihan ko ng kasiyahan, gripes, kalungkutan. Siya yung karamay ko sa iyakan. Siya yung nakakaintindi sa kabuangan ko. Siya lang yung hindi ako hinuhusgahan. Siya yung tumutulong saken sa kahit anong paraan na kaya niya. I love you, twin. Alam ko galit ka saken. Sorry. Namimiss na kita ng sobra. Kung may chance lang na maging magkaibigan ulit tayo.. :(

Lastly, I lost someone who had been there for me nung sobrang down ako. He had been a good friend but I know hanggang doon nalang yun. Thank you, for lending a shoulder for me o cry on. Sorry kasi I wasn't able to pay back your goodness. Sandali lang kita nakilala pero I know you have good heart. Nasan ka man ngayon, I hope you're safe.



Few days from now, I'm turning 20. I know I have to face YEARS to come without all of you. I promise, I'll be stronger, wiser and braver this year. I know magiging masaya din kayo kapag nakita niyo kong kaya ng tumayo sa sariling paa. THANK YOU, sa inyo. I'll keep our memories forever but I know it's time for me to MOVE ON.

Aja, Yume. Aja! :)